waiting

if i wait on the Lord, i'll renew my strength. i'll rise up like an eagle. i'll run without tiring, i'll walk and not grow faint.

what do You mean, God? wait on You? how? i feel like patience is the loftiest goal i could strive for right now. it seems impossible. i don't know what to do. tell me what to do. tell me how to do it. tell me where i need to go and when. i'm pulled in so many different directions by so many things. there is too much to deal with. i am tired.

too much pain. too long to wait for who knows what, or why. too far away to catch up. too far behind to stop. too much, God, it's too much. i can't handle it.

i have to let You. please do something. i'm waiting.