Dear God,
It's been a very long time, once again. But I always come back, don't I? I'm always finding my way back to conversations with you.
Today I was thinking about how I would react if You came to earth and stood before me. If I saw You, the Father, standing before me, I would fall on my face in humility and fear and reverence. If I saw You, Christ, standing before me, I would embrace you. If I saw You, the Holy Spirit, before me, I would close my eyes and wait for You to move me, or to speak.
It was an inspiring message today in NT. Moses is dead. I think my Moses is lethargy, an unwillingness or lack of desire to work hard. I'm going to need to work hard if I intend to get through college. Please bless my efforts, even though they are late and weak.
I'm kind of wondering why I am writing this, now, because You already know what I'm going to say, and what I'm thinking. You know that perfectly, far better than I do. And yet I do it anyway. I think maybe it's for me, but that seems selfish... what about You? You're supposed to be first. How can I do that? How does that fit with this blog?
I always have questions. I feel so awkward, doing this. Please forgive me for my dullness of spirit, my lack of initiative. I really want to have a better relationship with You. I really do want to learn, and grow, and worship. I want to fall in Love with You, and to Love you in my actions.
Please teach me, and direct me as I move forward. Please...
Amen.
