so i wait patiently

wait until when?

God,

thanks for a great night. i'm still trying to learn how to behave, sort of, but it was a great night anyway. thank You. alot. please make Yourself real in Lexi's life. use me, please.

thank You for Jolynn, and all my other great friends. please help me rest tonight, and help me with my to-do list. gather my scattered thoughts and keep them in the 'from Isaiah' box.

hey God, i'm really excited about this whole warrior idea. please teach me more, if it is the truth, and if it is, then help me see and experience and realize that. i really love the idea of it.

God, whatever and whoever is happening to Llaura, i pray against it. so much wonderful stuff was hers, God, and now it seems like she's been claimed as a plaything for chaos. God, please begin to rescue and restore her, and give her new life. don't just lead her to good influences... lead her to repentance, and the incredible changes that You can effect in the life of one of Your children when they seek and find You.

please continue to redirect my reasons for being alive.

amen.

all that long

it hasn't been all that long, God. please forgive my voice, now. it's different, I know. it used to be that i spoke nothing but my meaning, and nothing was hidden. it used to be that i spoke plainly, without embellishment, eloquence, or fancy styles. i don't like how i am now. i like how i was, straight with You, direct with You.

today, i got to class on time, took care of some stuff on my list, enjoyed the tutoring (and the frap), and did fairly well on that OT exam. (thanks for the help.) it is always alot of fun talking to Brandon. thank You for such an awesome friend.

thank You for this song, "she's you." i love it, and everyone else is enjoying it, too. thanks for the poem, too... "you." i have yet to see if it's good. =)

i'm sorry i left You alone. it used to be that i came to You every day. now i pray to You once a month, and what is that?! i can't even remember to capitalize You! so easy to lowercase myself, though.

i have questions, God, such profound and deep questions... but it's like i said. when i think You're crazy, You're a genius. when i think You're silent, You're writing me a song to blow away every song before it. You're romantic like that, i guess.

i want to do this more.

when can i see You again?

i feel like my prayers are firmer on the screen. i publish, and it goes to Your inbox, and You're like, "hey, mail from My son!" who only mails you once a month. geez. more, God... more. show me what it is to be with You, and what it does.

please take Llaura into Your hands, and remind me that i'm in Yours, as well. please teach me a faith that is stronger. thank You for blessing Evan; bless him still more, God.

and my dreams for the summer? i pray that they are Yours as well.

thank You.

amen