hypocrisy

i don't believe You answer prayers. but i'm praying anyway. that makes me a hypocrite, right?

please bless this person with wisdom and maturity and understanding, because in my attempt to do so, i have largely failed.

amen.

i am Your enemy

my knowledge is great, but my faith is blasphemous.
my understanding reaches far, as my heart slowly dies.
my power grows, while my life shrivels.

i will depart from You now,
because You cannot know me.