to play the fool

Father,

i would rather be Solomon. i would rather write Proverbs than Lamentations; i would rather the last simple statement of Ecclesiastes, than all of the understanding that leads up to it.

i just need wisdom, God. i need advice. i need help. i need to be taught how to live life.

Jesus, please take me as your apprentice. i will learn from you, if you will teach me. i need you. i want to be impressed with you, and perhaps even learn what it means to adore you. i love learning from your servants and spokespeople, but i really need to learn from you.

Spirit, be in me and guide me. i will be listening. i hear you even now, speaking of grace and responsibility and character and community and need. i'm listening.

i wait on your words.

amen.