i cannot get away from You.
if i sink into the deepest psychological depression, You're there.
if my life is in social turmoil, You're there.
when i suck at life, You're there.
when i tell You that You don't exist, You're there.
every time i pretend to worship, You're there.
in my complacency and my incompleteness, You're there.
if i become confident in You, You're there,
and when i'm sure my whole world is doomed, You're there.
when i misunderstand, You're there, and when i can't understand anything, You're there, and when i think i understand it all, You're there.
in the midst of an impossible dilemma, You're there, and as the minotaur is breathing down my neck, You're there.
in my anger, sorrow, excitement, sinfulness, apathy, hate, and love, You're there. when i'm asleep, and when i'm awake, and when i'm in between, You're there. when i'm praying and when i'm failing, You're there. when i'm singing and when i'm hurting and when i'm trying to shut everything and everyone out... You're there.
You make it hard for me to not trust You.
please help me in my unbelief...
amen.
1 comment:
One would think that this concept wouldn't be all that hard to grasp... *sigh* it goes back to what I've come to call my head versus heart knowledge. it's something I know, something so totally drilled into me after all the years I've spent in the church... and yet it means nothing.
I just wish I could understand... but even in my own spiritual apathy, I'll still be sincerely praying for you.
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