i see You

i have glimmers of understanding here and there. please accept my feeble, fickle gratitude as i continue to seek You, deaf and blind and immeasurably blessed.

help

right now, LORD, there is no heart lower than mine, no soul more abased. i am the chief of sinners. i scheme and plot my own pleasure as naturally as breathing. no one sees me when i wish not to be seen. i'm not worthy to address You; i'm not worthy to speak to anyone.

Father, be gracious anyway; please, grant me strength and integrity. grant me the power to overcome temptation; let me trade in my lusts for pure passion. help me to truly earn the trust of others.

give me a right heart, and a right life. i am Yours. save me. redeem me from my ruin.

amen.